Here it goes..

This weekend I realized a lot of things about myself that I never have. I realized how controlling you are with everything I do… It was probably the hardest thing to do but to be honest I’ve done it before I can do it again. I don’t need you or your contradicting and controlling mood swings. I don’t need you to tell me your opinion or what you think I should do. I’m Alicia and I live for myself now, not you. I have wasted literally years dealing with this and you and I’m just so over it. I’m done worrying about how “fat” I’m getting or hearing about how much you need me. I needed you and you were never there mean while I sit here everyday making sure your okay. Your in the situation your in for a reason and it’s literally draining to have to support you when I hate you for what you’ve done and what you’ve done to me. I can’t “love” someone who doesn’t respect me to be honest I question if I ever did… done.